I normally refrain from posting personal stuff unless it is late at night, so have a pyramidical Citroen as an apology.

The emptiness is coming back, I feel it. It's been some time since I quit the sleeping and depression pills, they made me numb to the my relationships and myself. It's better to feel bad than to feel nothing at all. But feeling bad sucks.

This whole ordeal turned me into a dick. I'm blasé and I can't really stand people around me, caring is hard. But in the same way those who I enjoy being around are noticing all this, and once again my closest friends are fading away and I blame me.