I am sick and tired of living in a situation where I can’t speak up because I’m stuck with people who also have emotional or behavior disorders and choose to recognize potential emotional or behavior disorders through punishment. I am sick and tired of feeling like I have to be on edge all the time and watch and monitor what I say and that any word can set anything off. I am sick and tired of people not understanding or not being sympathetic to why I feel like I have to have outbursts of frustration and why I have so much trouble and difficulty dealing with people. And at the end of it all I have to wonder, why me? Yeah it sounds cliche but right now I don’t care. It’s maddening enough that - you know what? I’m not saying that I’m going to hurt people, but it does feel so frustrating that hurting others or myself sometimes feels like the only option left.