I don't even know how to start.

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I've been studying the IB for two years now. The final exams are just over a month away and things are drawing to a close. The stress has been big - I've rarely had more than six hours of sleep, often four, every day. In two years, I've become habitually cynical and sometimes, irrationally angry. I never had time to go out and enjoy myself - like over Christmas, it wasn't celebrating with my friends, it was studying for the mock exams that came directly after. And I didn't do so hot in those. Now with every single class focused on revision, these exams are going to be some of the most important I've ever taken. I admit, I'm scared for the future. I don't know if I'll be staying in Hong Kong or going overseas, which is why I'm not going on a grad trip with my friends. If I don't/can't get into uni, who knows. Couple that with a rejection from the one person that gave me some semblance of genuine happiness and I think I just cracked. After school today, I just went to the forest behind the campus and cried. I can usually suppress my feelings and just do the job. But today, I just couldn't keep it in anymore.

I shouldn't be complaining. There are others out there in far worse situations than I am. For that, I commend them for dealing with such situations far worse than my own. I just wish I wasn't so weak.


Sorry for the babble Oppo. I just needed to let it out some more.

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