First of all, thank you to everyone who chimed in on my last post. I took the overwhelming advice and had a chat with a professional through the company’s EAP system. It’s a first step, at least. The “official” diagnosis is that yes, I may be suffering from depression, but it’s hard to tell through all of the smoke from my epic burnout. So i need to work on managing stress and trying to get out from under what feels like a crushing weight that is everything. I guess. I don’t really know...

On the one hand, it feels better to know I’m not just making it up, but on the other hand, it’s not just something I can fix.

EDIT: I want to apologize if I’ve been really harsh, mean spirited, or anything else thusly negative to anyone lately. I’m working on it.