Work is alright. Some people there who have contributed to the cliquey culture there has left and new people are there...I am getting along better with coworkers there. Got a bit of a raise a couple months ago but still want to leave it for a better job with less insane hours... and leave Lawn Guyland.


This is bit weird; not sure exactly how to describe it. I’ve completely stopped communicating with old friends and classmates from undergrad, grad school, former coworkers (I’ve been there a little more than 2 years now), etc. Stopped texting, calling, emailing people I was friends with for years. None of them have reached out and it’s been about 6 months now. I feel better about it and really don’t even think about them much anymore. I don’t even want to hang out with anyone at this point cause I’ve found I’ve become pretty good at keeping myself busy. It feels almost like apathy but with more satisfaction. I think I just need a change of scenery and I know once I accomplish that I’ll be in good shape overall. Maybe I’m desensitized? Does feel a bit numb.

Prepare for a new era of Nibby. The rising has commenced, drenched in blood, turpentine, and the tears of the forgotten.