I am really punchy right now. I drove 2.5 hours to Monterey, mediated from 10 am to 8 pm (arguing bullshit in a small room), got a deal we had to take but not the deal we wanted, drove 2.5 hours back.
With all of my Sunchaser and Vespa, the Q70L does not get enough of my love. It is the luxury boat my son’s T Bird longed to be in 1970.
Unlike the TBird, it is surprisingly responsive for such a long car. It fits its purpose perfectly, as a comfortable and technology equipped cruiser for my road travels around beautiful California. It seems like I find new and amazing roads all the time. Found one today, as a matter of fact.
I am sitting in my yard at 11:45 pm in an odd mental state that I can’t quite understand. I had a 2.5 hour dinner/interview with a reporter yesterday, and it rattled me in a manner that I can’t explain.
He was nice. I do not know why I feel as I do; perhaps it is just the fact that this is the first time I have told the whole story from beginning to end. I really held nothing back. I had a pretty good vibe about the guy. But I feel off, and do not know why.
Part of what confuses me about these feelings is that I have nothing to lose. If he crucifies me, my clients will only love my willingness to fight for them, even if I put myself in harm’s way.
I just want the whole story told truthfully, and am tired of staying quiet.
Today, I negotiated a deal that was not the thing we wanted to do, but it was the thing we had to do. It is the hardest decison to make, and the one that is hardest to tell a client. They don’t want to do it, but they have to. So this was a hard day, where a client of mine was frustrated by the deal that we had.
If I had called the guy’s bluff, we would not have settled, and it would have cost both of our clients more money than was on the table today. I was not willing to let a point of pride derail the deal when today was our cheapest way out
My client did not want to take the deal. I pushed them to take it. This guy works for a big firm that hands him these clients; I have a small firm where everything is on me. I have degenerate all of my own work.
Please allow me to apologize if this post makes no sense. I had to express this somewhere, and I chose here. Sorry.
I can only offer a nice car in apology: