Just got back from my doctor’s appointment. I am now officially not allowed to drive anymore as they are putting me on constant, higher strength pain meds. There is a debate as to whether to continue my chemo or not. Newest scan shows progression, so I am now considered a terminal cancer patient.

They said optimistically I have about 2-4 months left in me, and it won’t be a pleasant last few months. This is my fourth Oncologist and he has tried the hardest to do everything to save me. Honestly, I have no idea how to deal with this and everything feels numb. Venting online because I don’t have the heart to tell my friends and social circle yet. Going to have to take the roadsters out for one last drive tonight.

I don’t even know what to do anymore.